Sometimes in life we go through times were we think we're doing okay and find out that we aren't and it can be a real shock at times and other times it can get us to be determined to get back on track and be more aware of the signs when we're starting to drift. Other times we go through life and need to get wake up call to get us to realize that we need to get together and stop being stubborn and hard headed it about it, because that only delays us and prolongs the process. Today was one of those days for me, for where God really got a hold of my attention and showed me that I need to stop being stubborn and yes, defiant about what He's put on this earth to do.
For the past few years I've allowed fear, what people may think, my size, to keep me from doing what I know God wants me to do. In-spite of it all I knew that I had the ability to do something about it but I refused to because I didn't want to, was too afraid, and was judgmental, meaning telling myself "I can't do that!!", "That's impossible!" "That's stupid!" I came up with a 1,001 and more excuses and reasons why. However, as I said earlier God got a hold my attention and basically He told me to stop complaining and to trust Him and to stop being stubborn and defiant, because He knows I want to change and do the things that He has planned for me to do. It's amazing how God knows how to be real with us and get a hold of our attention and get us to wake up and snap out of it when we go into our own little world.
Today's word from God was a hard one I must admit and it did hurt, there tears that were shed, but I know that God isn't mad at me and that He loves me and wants the best for me and I thank Him for it because it will make me better, He wants to mold me into the woman that He wants me to be. After today I am determined to get back on track and allow myself to get on out there and do what I need to do with God's help.
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears. Philippians 1:6
